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okay, so i seriously think this is the first time i've been on livejounal for hm....maybe 6months? minimum. well i just got the internets back and i'm trying to catch up with everything i've been neglecting for so long. For a start, i'm finally moving out of the student/real ghetto and into a really nice apartment in portage by myself(not really by myself, but anyhoo..). I'm working a great job at milwood animal clinic, i get to play with puppies all day long! i should be getting my first kitten here in the next couple of months, i should start to load up all the pics from my camera since the last few months here, so if you have me on myspace or facebook, you'll get to see those before too long. I've gotten fat,(and happy!!)but me and the bride(elise, she's getting married in august...and i'm in it) are getting on a hard-core work-out/diet routine so we can be hot by the wedding, so problem solved. also i'm about the happiest i've ever been with where i am in so many aspects of my life.(it's just that pesky career thing getting in the way) I have the most amazing person in my life who has made a world of difference in how i live and think everyday.(his name is nick;).
honestly, i don't think i've ever had life this good.(knock on wood!!) so now that i'm able to actually keep up with everybody it will be even better!
love you all!!!

okay, so i feel that this is update worthy.
last friday night we all decided it'd be a great idea to drink. of course it was a great idea until it turned into "let's get em as drunk as humanly possible" night. after four shots of vodka and five smirnoff later, i had to be told the story of the night. not only had i already drank too much, i continued to drink more with my friends, but my friends decided to take shots of water while mine were vodka. i was unaware of this. next thing i remember i'm crawling in the grass outside getting rained on. this kid nick had to come out and carry me inside. after this i'm blank again. i spent the whole night puking, dry-heaving and passing out in the bathroom. my lovely friends who got me so drunk were the ones holding my head inthe bucket 'o puke for more. they stripped me of my pants(this i remember) then put me to bed on the floor next to Gina's bed. they put up couch cushions on either side of me so i wouldn't roll over and choke on my own vomit.....i will reiterate this...they baby-bumpered me!!!
to any of you who have drank with me before that i brag of never having hang-overs.
fuck that!!!
i woke up the next morning(probably still drunk)in the worst pain of my life! headache, stomach ache, all i wanted was water and coffee. so i have water. i puke up the water. i go to sleep. i wake up thirsty. life's a bitch. i can't keep anything down and i had to work in two hours.
so i hop in the shower, but i could't stand up, so i laid down for a while. next thing i know it's a half-hour later and the steamy shower is ice cold. -that's right, i passed out in the shower. so they can't find anyone to work for me(boss was drinking with me night before, knew how bad i was, but couldn't find anyone for me) so i still had to go to work.
talk about the worst night of my life. there were only three of us and we were busy. personal hell
so i ate ice cubes all day, and the lack of coffee made my headache worse, but if i were to have any, i'd puke. vicious cycle. i couldn't eat until 9 that night, and it was a fucking peice of toast!
so ended my day of horror following my night of (apparent) fun....those bitches are going to get it

to all of you....i'm not an alkie

okay, you want an update? here's an update. i'm on myspace now so for all of you that want me can have me...;)
i'm in kzoo now for the year, so come see me! my place is pretty cool, but the color of the carpet in my room sucks, so i can't paint it the color i wanted to...i'll probably just leave it, oh well. it's a bit angled in places, but for the most part it's awesome. i actually like my roommates, and i'm not paying $275/mo to live in an ice box on the first floor. i'm paying $200/mo to live in a quite cozy little nook. i'm thrilled.

anyways, i guess i'll check y'all later!

so, nothing really too special happening here. just working a ton and trying to enjoy my summer. i'm coming down to kzoo next monday and i'll be there till wednesday. can't wait to see my kzoo crew!!! i'm hoping to be able to work at super 8 doing the afternoon or night shift at the desk, that would be sweet. i would still hang on to the large boy and work there on weekend mornings if i can, but i need something else a little more reliable.

i've been fighting with my sister a lot, but we make up pretty quick. she tells me i was stupid and i tell her she was a bitch and then, other than a constant mutual annoyance, we get along okay. i'm still not going to let her touch my car though.

i'm getting physical therapy for my knee, apparently my patella is all sorts of fucked up as well as possibly some cartilege damage. we're waiting a month before my next check up and then if it's not better with the pt, i'll go in for an MRI. we'll see. for now i go in and he plays with my knee for a bit, puts on a battery powered pain medication patch and i go on my way(with exercises to do on the side). i've only had two appoinments, so there might be a bit more to this than just that, but we'll see.

well, there isn't really much else up, so i will see all you bitches in a week!!!


ps..maia, do you know if angie has trashed the place?? she still hasn't contacted me or paid me back for the consumer's bill....i'm not thinking that will happen....tire slashing may be required....or maybe AIM would take it out of her security deposit......not really

so recently life sucks for me hardcore. something new every fucking day. so you all know how i was working two jobs and shit, well... father's day was the busiest day so far at applebee's and the kitchen was slow as hell. the customers were mad, the managers were mad, and generally, eveyone was pretty irritable. the way the managers are there is, they either love you or hate you and that's how they get by their busy days. they yell at the one's they don't like because it's easier than yelling at the ones that deserve it. mitch, the store manager was there and he was pissed as hell at the kitchen. my friend steve walked into the kitchen to see where his food was(perffectly normal) and got screamed at. he later was written up, put on probation, and if he screws up in the next month, he gets suspended for a week. then there was me. three days shy of not being the new girl anymore(the first month they can do whatever they want with you and get away with it), they give me the option of a demotion to hostess.
i have never been told i wasn't good enough before, that hurts. one may ask, "why would they do this to you?" well i had a table that waited forever to get their food, and then when they did, one of the steaks was cold and they wanted it taken off of their tab. somehow this was my fault and i was told i was stupid and couldn't handle it.
so with the offer of the new position, i said fuck it, i quit. and i did. i won't work in a place where my job is completely dependant on whether or not the manager got laid the night before.
so i went into my other job and talked to my boss, she promptly gave me a promotion.
i still won't make as much money as i would with two jobs, but it's something.

i figure, with the level of karma i'm attaining i'll win the fucking lotto.

and katie....go for it baby!

okay, the last two days have been hell...i mean HELL!!!!! so yesterday started at 8am cleaning rooms, not as bad as usual. i was optimistic for the rest of the day. this is where old testament God (jew God) comes out instead of new testament God(nice and friendly). I go to work at applebee's and my first table walks out without paying. it was a $33 bill. usually they would make me pay that out of my tips, but i got the good manager, and he comp'd it for me. after that it was all downhill. my tables sucked, the kitchen sucked, and the managers sucked even worse. i was on the verge of tears for about three hours straight.

the other day, i got a notice in the mail from consumer's energy saying that we never paid a bill from april for about $228. this is due on the 20th or else my credit goes up to shit. i JUST paid my rent from about two weeks ago(i talked to them, they understood) and now i'm stuck with this bill for an extra $57. this has to get in the mail in the next two or three days for it to get there on time. i'm fucked.

to put the icing on the cake, i'm due for my depo BY the 16th. so i went to the health department the other day to get it and it just so happens that the RN is out of country for the next three weeks and i can't get it done there. my only option is to go through my insurance, sure, no problem. so i call planned parenthood in kalamazoo for help and they called in a prescription to rite aid and i went to pick it up. turns out my insurance doesn't cover it if it's not a mail-in order. the price? $175. needless to say, i don't have an extra $175 and $57 laying around the house let alone the cost of having to take that prescription to the doctors and having them inject me with it.
why the fuck do they make it so hard for someone to get bc? what if i were a teenager scared to death to get on it in the first place and they made it this difficult??? that's why this town has so many damn babies with babies.
anyways, i'm not afraid of having babies, i'm afraid of what my body is going to do. if i don't get something, this will be the first time in 5 years i haven't had estra horomones in my system. i'm going to be even more fucked up emotionally and not to mention have my first period in two and a half years.
the only plus side to this situation?? weight loss. ...hmmm yup that's it

i'm so pissed off right now, i just want to know what the fuck i did to deserve all this shit.

so this is going to be my last day off in the foresee-able future. i work at applebee's everyday on the schedule, and i'm at super 8 about every other day. i will die soon. tonight i can hopefully go and see a movie or something, or at least get ice cream.

i think i might start plotting how, when, and where to kill my sister and where to dump the body within the next few weeks.
I AM NOT A TAXI!!!!!
i hate when people take advantage of me. maybe if you weren't such a bad driver and rolled your car you wouldn't be in this pathetic position!! and suck it up and get ajob!! even if it is cleaning rooms, i know that it's below you, but there's nothing else here for you unless you feel like working at mcdonald's!!! fuck you!!!

...sorry, i've had this all pent up for a while and it's gonna let loose one way or the other.

i love you all, and i will hopefully talk to you guys soon.

so, i don't know what the hell has happened. the last few days have been such a blur. i ache. i find myself crying at work when i'm looking for a peice of paper, i cried making a bed. i should say work is a blessing, taking my mind off of things, but it may be worse, i might be too distracted. i'm so confused right now, and i'm really scared for next week, my mom and my sisters will be gone for four days and i'll be alone, just work to occupy me. i go on an emotional roller coaster every five minutes. someone will make me laugh and i'm happy, and then i think of who i'm not going to see the next day and i crash. i can't tell if i'm smart by looking ahead, or extremely stupid for panicing.
i doubt i'm making any sense right now, because i don't even make sense to myself. i need to talk to someone, but no one seems to think i need it because i'm the one who started this whole mess...maybe i deserve it. i hate hurting people

if you feel like replying to this, please call me instead...internet here doesn't always work...dial-up(pathetic wink)

okay, so here we go. i now have two jobs. i beging the day at 8am at the super 8 in town cleaning toilets and making beds for about 5 or 6 hours. i then proceed to applebees (where i'm still being trained) and work until about 10 at night.

ouch.

but i may even get some money before too long. i still have to pay rent and pay a $50 energy bill all due on the first. i'm not going to have any money for another week and a half, and i won't have enough money for all of that for even longer. i'm going to call AIM and explain the situation and maybe they'll let me pay a little bit late. if not i suppose i'll have to suck it up and ask if i can get a loan from my mom.(if she even has it)

i have a feeling i'll have burnout in about three weeks. blargh.

it's cold here.

brr...